30days30poemas #16

Got so much to say yet no one to say it to
soon you'll see how every line relates to you
how our love never grew
and how our hateful words spew
how every time you break my heart in spite of my love for you
makes me wonder what I should do next?
What's the wisest step?
cause Im tryna awake in a world
where for the most part Ive slept
and kept my sleeve on lock and key
leaving my chest exposed cause though its where my heart should be,
my emotions leak out violently
Thats why I cant put away how much you hurt me
or the emotions I have that Im hiding desperately
hoping my inability to shield doesnt expose me completely
and that the tears cried doesnt in essence defeat me; knocking on my door and greeting me
Leading me down hurtful paths
scaring me to a point that I ask"why?"
Is it because I held my head to high
Or am I really to preoccupied
tryna catch a wave but receiving the entire tide?
constantly swept under by your lies...
"I wanted to be with you"
but ur actions dont show that is true....
"We cant step there"But you constantly toy with me so unfairly
Or am I judgin you unjustly?
Im just searching for a little simplicity
and I swear on everythingI wish you would stop walking away from me
and stop causing me to do the same
cause no matter what I do It seems Im always left in the rain
Gathering lost pieces and harnessing the pain...