30days30poems #6

I still see you in my nightmares
and, not to sound juvenile
but it just aint fair
I mean
I stopped caring about your movements
they day you proved that
you hated me
By privately disgracing me...
By placing me in hospital bed
for a solemn doctor to have said
my baby was dead
because I had miscarried
all because you had buried
your foot
into my stomach
all because you "didnt want it"
and, in addition, didnt want me
no,
you'd rather see me living miserably
without my baby...
My daughter was my entity...
So forgive me
but its infuriating
that every time I close my eyes to sleep
there's a fear that you will appear in my dreams...
and as silly as it seems,
Im terrified
simply because you are no longer a part of my life
But you, uninvitedly invade my mental space
and I impatiently have to wait
for my unconscious self to awake...